I am not emo but let me just warn you guys this post is going to be a little "emo".

Have you guys ever tried to just put in alot lot lot of effort by changing how you behave to please someone? Have you guys ever tried this hard to please them? Have you guys ever succeeded in changing yourself in a positive way but ended up getting a fcked up response?

Let me tell you it's freaking frustrating and I'm totally pissed off. I kept standing up every time i fall but I'll just get a worst fall next time. How long can i keep up with this? How long can i even last? I've never given up but things just get harder every time i passed an obstacle. This mixed feelings of frustration, anger & sadness...it's painfull...i hate it.

& my freaking manager didn't come to work today.

Screw 13 Friday